Islam hijab enlightened?!?

Ok so I have been totally fascinated by Islam for the last 2 years. There are no Muslims in my community that I know of and all my friends are christian:hindu (live in us). Theres not a mosque nearby and my parents would never support this. Anyways I go to a library in a different town once a week and there is also the only Quran I have ever seen and today I decided to wear a scarf (once there) and I made it look like a hijab and I wore it. It felt like forever but it also made me feel good and I can't wait to do it again. I pray 5 times a day but in my own way not properly and also I have fasted for the last 3 years it's just I don't know what to do next. I don't have good access to a Quran, and don't have hijab stuff or anything else? Also any ideas I'd like to eventually tell my friends. Thanks a lot.